At the end of last semester, I was thinking that confronting the issues of the Anthropocene required faith: to have faith that the climate is indeed changing and that the need to reassess our own relationship to the planet is the most urgent issue of our time. I believed–and still believe–that no change can start until people embrace these realities.
There has definitely been some overlap between the things we talked about this semester and last: the insignificance of human life on geologic time scales, the “we’ve fucked up the planet and ourselves” essays/books, the critiques about the lack of climate-related/concerned literature… last semester was probably one of the most important/enlightening of my time at Ohio State. The “faith” to believe in the science behind previously bland climate change narratives awoke in me. Whether we choose to acknowledge it or not, the emerging Anthropocene is important–last semester it became important to me.
But for all the good last semester did (and don’t get me wrong, I’m so grateful that I ended up being able to take ENG 4563), it was also demoralizing. Newfound gloom accompanied the knowledge I was gaining, and the alarming problems that we would discuss were rarely coordinated with realistic solutions; I was more engaged with my schoolwork than I’d ever been, but felt more discouraged and anxious than I ever had. Even now, much of this hasn’t really changed.
“We live in capitalism, it’s power seems inescapable–but then, so did the divine right of kings.” -Ursula K. Le Guin
If there was one thing that’s changed since last semester, it’s that I have a much greater sense of hope; this quote has been such a sustaining force for me this semester, quelling my anxiety and guiding my newfound hope. Just because I don’t know how/if I (or anyone else) can change the way we treat this planet doesn’t invalidate my pursuit of that change. There is no guarantee that we find a way to adjust/cope with the forthcoming disasters… but there was never any guarantee that Rachel Carson would spearhead the environmental movement with one book–she did. I would much rather invest myself into improbability of hope than the inevitable doom that is birthed by a desire for comfort. I don’t mean to make this into something all about me/rife with selfish cliché… but I think I’m learning how to look at the steps toward the goal; I’m not as demoralized/paralyzed by how distant and impossible that goal seems.
It takes courage to embrace the uncertainty tied to the reality of climate change; it takes courage to treat climate change as more than an obstacle but as the defining feature of our lives. Even if governments, corporations, universities, and so many others ignore the Anthropocene, there are too many people who are working to reshape our notions of sustainability/life on this planet to make me feel like change is truly impossible: “any human power can be resisted and changed by human beings” (Le Guin).
I, along with many teachers, activists and scholars and others who toil for a better world, might never see/play a large part in a world I deem desirable. I might never see a world that really respects environmental limitations; I likely won’t see a world that rids itself of systemic oppression based on race, sex or gender identities. But perhaps what’s most important is that I have hope that I’ll never live in a world where people who contest/resist these injustices fade out. As long as there are people who resist against oppression and work toward what is right, there is always hope for change.
‘Til next time,
Paul